“My Thirst For More Drove Me On”

My thirst for more drove me on. I began to explore the doctrine of the Spirit. Raised as a cessationist, I believed that the Holy Spirit comes to each believer at conversion, after that there is nothing more to it. I was told that expecting more was dangerous. Then I preached Romans. When I came to chapter 8, Lloyd-Jones’ treatment of the Puritan view of the work of the Spirit post-conversion grabbed my attention. Here was an historically grounded pneumatology that bred anything but low expectations. I wanted more than ever to see God awaken the church, to speak freshly into the lives of his people, to anoint my ministry with such power.

I began to look for a new context for ministry—one where there was a greater openness to the Spirit. This was during the era where there seemed to be two options: dead orthodoxy or seeker-friendly pragmatism. Neither was an option for me.

About this time, the Vineyard churches came along, with their distinct emphasis on prophecy. Some of my friends were swept up into this third wave. Their experiences and testimony drew me in. What they described and how they prayed for me answered my thirst for more. I found in them a sense of the immediacy of the Spirit’s work in any given situation, and a boldness to speak into people’s hearts and lives. Read more»

Anonymous, “Confessions of a Former Charismatic” Heidelblog (August 12, 2016)


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One comment

  1. I would like for someone to share with me a “word from the Lord” that provides the winning Powerball Numbers. It seems strange to me that with so many “prophetic” words, we don’t hear about winning lottery numbers or even stocks to short!

    I’m not asking for a touch from God, a fresh anointing, etc. Just some random numbers or a few stock symbols. Think of all the good that could be done with the “wealth of the sinner!”

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