As a young boy I certainly believed in Santa. We made the annual cookie oblation and went to bed under the conditional covenant that he would not come if we did not sleep (or at least stay in bed). Nevertheless, I think I began to doubt the Santa faith earlier than some. We did not have a fireplace and the idea of someone, even Santa, coming through the front door in the middle of the night was a little creepy. I do not actually remember apostatizing, nevertheless, when it came time to decide what to tell our children about Santa, we opted out of the Santa story.
It was not because we were or are Christmas haters. It was not because we did not have much money for presents (we did not). We told our children that the man in the red suit was the “Christmas clown” (thank you Vern Pollema) on the premise that, while pretending is fun and necessary, the Santa story is not quite the same thing. When we were reading pretend stories to our children, they knew the convention: that we were making up stories and that we were temporarily entering into a make-believe world, that we were exercising our imaginations about possible worlds. That is why make-believe stories begin with conventional lines such as “Once upon a time . . .” This language is a verbal wink. It signals to the participants: “please place your tray in an upright and locked position, turn off your cell phones, and stow your carry-on bag. The flight is taking off.”
In the Santa faith, however, there is no such convention. The story is told earnestly and even passionately. Expressions of doubt are met with rebuke and exhortation. Evidence is presented and a defense of the faith is offered. The cookies and milk are gone in the morning. New presents appear. There are other rituals. In my family we opened some presents on Christmas Eve. Dad always worked on Christmas Eve. As the time approached for him to come home from work, time began to slow. After dinner he would take a nap. While he napped, each present was checked meticulously and shaken one more time. Time came to a halt in the annual demonstration of the theory of relativity. The energy of a concupiscent child is equal to the mass of presents under the tree times the length of my father’s nap squared. The rite never varied, at least not while we believed.
That is just it. At some point we learned that the Santa faith is not really a true faith at all. It was a complex hoax, a conspiracy even. Santa cannot live in your heart if he does not really live at the North Pole. At that moment, in a small but sometimes painful way, we learn that people lie. The pain of the truth is buffered by presents and Christmas cheer, but things are never the same. We become just a little bit cynical, perhaps for the first time.
We decided not to tell our children that there was a Santa because we did not want our children to suspect that we were liars. If we lied to them about Santa, why were we not lying about Jesus and the resurrection? After all, they had never seen Jesus. They only had a book, a story, and a story teller. Who can blame them for doubting? If Santa does not really fly through the air, then perhaps Jesus did not ascend? If Santa did not really eat the cookies, then perhaps communion is just a thing we do; it does not really mean anything.
In its own way, the Santa myth tells children (and grown-ups) that this really is a closed universe, that there is really no such thing as transcendent reality, that Christmas is really about being nice to one another, and thus, so is Christianity. Perhaps modern people believe so easily in the “death of God” because they learned a long time ago of the death of Santa? Poetry is a way of talking about transcendent realities. If there are no transcendent realities, then poetry is ultimately hollow. There is nothing to communicate, or worse, the message communicated is that there is no message—not really.
Some cultural historians tell us that the Santa faith has become more intense in the modern period than it ever was (e.g., in pre-modern times). Perhaps that is because, having implicitly accepted the modern notion that it is no longer possible for rational, modern people to believe in a tri-personal, transcendent God, or that Jesus is God the Son incarnate, we have turned to a new, more credible, more manageable, and less demanding deity? After all, he only asks that we be good. The only punishment for failure is possibly that we do not get that new flat-screen. Perhaps Christmas is commercialized not because the Scroogey old capitalists have ruined it, but because they are giving us our hearts’ desire?
Presents and eggnog are great fun. We buy the tree and give presents. Remembering the incarnation of God the Son is a fine thing. It is great to receive the annual Christmas cards and letters, even if I fail to reciprocate properly. Whatever we do around the holiday, let us remain grounded in real history and let us make sure that when we pretend, we and our children are all on the same page.
©R. Scott Clark. All Rights Reserved.
Editor’s Note: This article was originally published on the Heidelblog in 2008.
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